April 04, 2010


When I first decided to write this post about a few weeks ago, I was going to write about how I learnt not to care about what people have to say about me anymore but this past long weekend made me see the other side. I was going to go on to rant about how people can say all they want to say but it wont bother me one bit. On April 1st, that whole thought and idea about not bothering told me psyches!!!!! "not being concerned is not for you, its for the masters and mistresses of the game in which you are unfortunately not part" That was when I realized that all that I have built about my nonchalant attitude towards being unconcerned was just a lie. Yes I know I shouldnt be bothered and I can go on thinking and saying, if you dont know me you cant judge that would be the wise thing to do because after all the principle to living life is not trying to please everyone. Ironically, I can preach about this to the whole world but I become the preacher that doesnt follow his words. The person who has not gotten the plank out of her eye and wants to get the speck out of other people eyes. It is a very hypocritical behavior but I cant help myself, I am only human. I have come to realize that whatever story I hear about me, I really want to seat people down and tell them I did not do any of those things the heard about me. The rumors I have heard about me, I know deep within me I do not have the balls to do such and that makes it the more annoying. I want to seat everyone that has ever heard anything negative about me and give them my life history then and only then are they allowed to judge me. Yes I know I have made some dumb ass moves that would allow some of this rumors to be credible. I am always so sad when I hear these stories and I always want to know about these stories so that when and walk past people I know what they saying about me. All those people that go behind my to say stuff and come to my face to pretend to be friendly.... Just so you know.... I can read between lines you backstabbing, rumor mongers and fuckers.... I pray I am able to overcome this vice of being bother about rumors. Also, I hate boys that kiss and tell, they know themselves, even the ones you dont kiss that you mistake them to be your friend would carry random rumors about you and them, Just so they know I have learnt my lessons and the words of a famous man "Never again!!!!!!!!!!" 
I love my friends that would always tell me the stuff they hear about me and I do vice versa.... 

In other news Happy Easter.... Jesus loves everyone

PS: This post was supposed to come out as a calm one, but started getting aggressive at the end due to gist I just about one of my friends and her boyfriend, I ll be sure to keep you guys updated when I get the true value of the gist.
Love, Peace and Chocolate